Friday, September 8, 2017

Shut In Your Face...


so I wanted to encourage you.
THANK GOD FOR CLOSED DOORS.
When that relationship I was in before didn't work,
SLAMMED IN MY FACE
why didn't he want me
I was 15 and naive
thirsty for love
looking in all the wrong places
BUT THANK GOD HE SLAMMED THAT DOOR SHUT IN MY FACE

CUZ PRAISE GOD I HAVE ROLAND NOW.

did it hurt then?
yes...
did I feel rejected and embarrassed and dumped off...
yes..

but I'm SO GLAD GOD CLOSED THAT DOOR IN MY FACE..

I tried out to be a UT Cheerleader, because I wanted popularity, fame, notoriety, to be 'somebody', even though Christ had made me someone in Him. I wanted to be lusted after. I wanted to be 'one of them.' Their life seemed so perfect.

BOOM!

DOOR SLAMMED SHUT.

Even though I was lowkey salty at God
He knew best!
and I knew that wasn't the path for me,
but I still had to battle with God, 'why',
but if I would have made cheer,
I wouldn't have gone on my mission trip with Let's Start Talking
I remember walking home one night after I signed up for Let's Start Talking after Longhorns for Christ
it was the hex rally (demonic)
and I was walking back to my apartment on Guadalupe and I walked right past the cheerleaders
I was excited to be on this new journey with God, but still part of me had suppressed my feeling of, 'why wasn't I a cheerleader.'
and I remember hearing God say to me ever so clearly,

I HAVE YOU RIGHT WHERE I WANT YOU.

and He did. I am were I am right now because that relationship didn't work out, because I didn't get to be a cheerleader even though I prayed for it and believed God for it (idolized it, truly)

I also applied to be a writer on this Christian blog. My stories and about me were great, but I never heard back from them?

Was I not a good writer?

of course not! I was gifted for this, I have a degree focused on screenwriting!
if I would have been writing for them,
I wouldn't have staciecherill.com and my blog posts and youtube channels!
is that blog that didn't accept me bad?
Do I want to stunt on them?
NO
God shut that door
because He had something better for me!!
TAILORED JUST FOR ME.
and I know The Precious Holy Spirit allowed them NOT to chose me
for HIS GLORY

THANK GOD FOR ALL THESE SHUT DOORS!

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Prayer,

Lord,
May we continue to seek your face like never before.
May we breath and eat your presence.
It's the perfect present to us, Oh Lord.
Lord, shut any door that is not in alignment with your Will.
Even though it may hurt,
you are a good good GOOD FATHER
you love us dearly
and anything not in your plan leads to DEATH
so Lord, we humbly submit ALL our life into your hands..
Amen!

YAY I LOVE YOU JESUS! THANK YOU FOR BIRTHING THIS OUT OF ME FOR YOUR GLORY!
AND THANK YOU FOR READING!
HAVE A BLESSED NIGHT!

Stacie!
"Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him up at the last day."

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