Saturday, September 16, 2017

WHY THE GIFTED AND TALENT PROGRAM DEFLATED MY ESTEEM.



so my Father wasn't in my life
i blamed it on my mom so I was mean to her
I was dealing with so many demons in my life
(like really, i was demonically possessed, no lie)

but I was a cheerleader
Junior National Honor Society
Student Council
bound for 'success' at such a young age

I spent my days at the biggest house in town
even though I came from a struggling black family
I hung with the upperclass white girls

not purposely, God did it to shape my personality
and they were my friends :)

but I had all this brokenness
so I had to SUCCEED.
EVEN AT A YOUNG AGE I HAD THIS COMPLEX.

SO I HAD TO BE GT
IT WAS LIKE THE ELITE
I HAD TO BE
THEY ALREADY BOOSTED ME UP SO MUCH (THE OTHER BLACK PEOPLE)

YOU ARE THE SMARTEST BLACK GIRL
(pressure?)



I know I am intelligent
and I think every child is
but I was not good at math
still not
but I am very creative
and I had other skills
but if you were not good at math

YOU WERE NOT GIFTED AND TALENTED

AND I FAILED LIKE TWICE
I TOOK IT AND DIDN'T TELL MY MOM THE RESULTS

I WAS SO EMBARRASSED

so i never told her
I still haven't told her

i was so in shame

I WAS NOT GIFTED AND TALENTED ACCORDING TO  A TEST

CUZ I FAILED THE MATH PART??

I WAS CRUSHED
AND EMBARRASSED

BUT THANK GOD I STILL WENT ON TO DO AMAZING THINGS

THANK GOD HE CALLED US GIFTED AND TALENTED BEFORE THE WORLD BEGAN
AND NO TEST, NO PERSON CAN EVER CLAIM THAT OR TAKE THAT AWAY FOR US

SO ENCOURAGE YOUR CHILD
ENCOURAGE YOURSELF IN THE WORD

BELIEVE WHAT CHRIST SAYS ABOUT YOU,

"FOR THE LORD WILL TAKE DELIGHT IN YOU;" ISAIAH 62:4

Jesus is SO PROUD OF YOU!! 

Thank you for reading!
and Thank you Abba for keeping me and loving me!!

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