One Last Time

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She needed to do it

she was on late night Insta Messenger

She knew she shouldn't send it

“one last time”

it's what they told each other

when they wanted to have sex

one last time before they went off..

to college, work, whatever

He was engaged now

pretty girl

she loved Jesus

and she did too,

but right now

all she felt was hatred and rejection

why did he chose her?

They had built so much

like the tower of babel their idol tower had

fallen down

she was bitter at God

even had hatred

she knew if she sent this snap

it would  initiate lust

I mean, it's not like they were really cheating?

It doesn’t really count if you were not married yet right?

Her friend Meg told her that it didn't really count with that married guy

she had sex with because 'his wife made him miserable'.

Blurred lines.

Jesus I just want one more time to feel wanted by Him,

to feel loved...

but she couldn't hit send

she lay in the bed numb...

perfect anesthesia so God can give her heart surgery...

For the wages of sin is death; but the gift of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord. Romans 6:23 

*thanks for reading, love-Stacie