Wednesday, October 7, 2015

Stacie Did Not Die for the Sins of The World.

Yesterday, Ellie and I had a wonderful time at the beach...

It's funny how God is working on my heart to enjoy things with just him and me (he and I* grammar ya'll) without always wondering when Adam is coming along so me and him can go chill at the beach.

Nothing is wrong with my desire for marriage...but it can easily become an idol if I think the only fun I can have on the beach is with my boo* 

I went on a weekday around 4. It was so quiet. Hardly anyone out there. Which was lovely.. Usually, I wanted to go to the beach to be seen because I was filled with lust and low self-esteem and I wanted the attention of men and the jealously of women..  "But who the Son set's free..."

This was Ellie's first time on the beach. Well, with me at least. Maybe her family before me took her, but she was scared of the water. But the HUGE sea birds  seagulls?  birds at the beach? Not a problem! She would CHASE after them for miles, well it felt like miles! I did a lot of jogging! And it was a great workout for both Ellie and I. It was so great....Just really great. And beautiful.

Ellie getting ready to chase after a bird. I was so scared she was going to run into the ocean, I would chase after her full speed! After that, I put her leash on!

Flexin my natural hair 

Here is something I journal-ed to God about. It was on my mind heavy..well the conviction was real... I've been asking God to expose all my heart and completely expose and work out of me everything that's unlike him. So I will share it with you...

 The first thought when I wake up in the morning, I want it to be, "Wow! Another day God has blessed me with to be in his presence and to share his glory to the world.'s been thoughts of that don't give God glory. I don't wanna worry about those being sexually abused the healing they need, the abusers needing to get out of their demonic oppression, the sick, the homeless, the hungry, all the evil and injustice in the world... Yes, the next step will be to pray, but worrying is of the devil.

  I don't want to think hope for/idolize when I wake up, "ooh, I'm one day closer to my wedding day." As if that is my core motivation to getting through the day. I'm one day closer to having sex again  (the true way in Christ) And while all those things are Godly and amazing, those need to come second because my TRUE HOPE  should be in The Wedding Feast of the Lamb. My True Wedding, when I'm reunited with my True Husband and all evil is banished and the world is given back to God and satan's reign as the prince of the air is OVER! 

I want you to strip everything from me. Search my hidden heart, and my deepest darkest desires, Lord and transform them by your glorious light. 

Use my past, even the sexual part, the past I'm ashamed of (but that's not me anymore, it died with my old self) But there are millions going through the same thing that need to be transformed by your marvelous light. 

Psalm 16

A psalm[a] of David.

Keep me safe, O God,
    for I have come to you for refuge.
I said to the Lord, “You are my Master!
    Every good thing I have comes from you.”
The godly people in the land
    are my true heroes!
    I take pleasure in them!
Troubles multiply for those who chase after other gods.
    I will not take part in their sacrifices of blood
    or even speak the names of their gods.
Lord, you alone are my inheritance, my cup of blessing.
    You guard all that is mine.
The land you have given me is a pleasant land.
    What a wonderful inheritance!
I will bless the Lord who guides me;
    even at night my heart instructs me.
I know the Lord is always with me.
    I will not be shaken, for he is right beside me.
No wonder my heart is glad, and I rejoice.[b]
    My body rests in safety.
10 For you will not leave my soul among the dead[c]
    or allow your holy one[d] to rot in the grave.
11 You will show me the way of life,
    granting me the joy of your presence
    and the pleasures of living with you forever.[e]

Love you guys sooo much! I hope you are doing great. I'm about to go eat my leftover tacos (plant-based of course) and snuggle with my Ellie Pooh and be comforted by the transforming Word of God. 

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